tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529408451442066706.post1624441779126457610..comments2023-09-26T08:30:42.867-05:00Comments on Locating My Life: RevelationsLilyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06044336707596369037noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529408451442066706.post-21042883201417724502010-12-07T15:16:29.820-06:002010-12-07T15:16:29.820-06:00*hugs* You are definitely in the midst of strong ...*hugs* You are definitely in the midst of strong and healthy therapeutic work.<br /><br />I think sometimes we tend to direct our anger at the safest people in our lives. I know I do.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529408451442066706.post-30203814922107597572010-12-05T13:40:52.288-06:002010-12-05T13:40:52.288-06:00My dear Lily as I read this entry I can so relate....My dear Lily as I read this entry I can so relate. Your abuser was the same age as my brother when he was sexually abusing me. And to this day, I have <b>never</b> gotten angry at my brother for the many times he abused me.<br /><br /><i>"Why can't I feel ANYTHING about him? There literally is nothing there. It just doesn't make sense. I wish I could understand why, that of everyone in my life at that time, he is the only one who never got any anger. Everyone else has, either directly or indirectly. I have hated them all for lesser things. But not him. Why have I made him immune to my emotions?"</i><br /><br />Although, I never felt threaten that my life was in danger....I share that same question as you "why don't I feel anger?" My t. and I came up with an answer, in my case at least. My brother and I were very young. He was more than likely demonstrating and practicing on his little sister over and over again. It was not like a pre-meditated rape attack with someone older that knew what they were planning on doing, which I am sure would have caused a different response from me. <br /><br />Still, the abuse has nevertheless left an everlasting effect on me emotionally and sexually. The area of intimacy is very hard for me. Something, I really do not know in my life time I will ever be able to handle? Does make me very sad though.....<br /><br /> But, it kind of makes sense as to why I could never get angry at my brother, even now for doing what he did. DOES NOT EXCUSE HIM! But there is no anger on my part. Realizing this option, eases my concern a bit.<br /><br />Here listening dear one.....<br />((((Lily))))Just Be Realhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15815210059310140144noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529408451442066706.post-17688898079439486772010-12-05T04:02:01.551-06:002010-12-05T04:02:01.551-06:00Lily, my heart goes out to you. It is hard and eha...Lily, my heart goes out to you. It is hard and ehavy going. Yes. he could have killed you. Yes you have chosen life over abuse. That was teh control you have had. Not that he was stronger - he was, not that he could have killed you. You have chosen life. You could have chosen to fight... But you have chosen life. LIFE. Hang in there, you have progressed with high speed, actually like a quantum leap sine you got a new therapist. Love form my heart to yours!Paulahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07241317042459836045noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529408451442066706.post-43284246455540922242010-12-04T19:58:38.607-06:002010-12-04T19:58:38.607-06:00Lily, this is powerful and painful.
I will keep yo...Lily, this is powerful and painful.<br />I will keep you in my prayers, too.<br /><br />Hugs to you.Finding Pamhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07671978828279304904noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529408451442066706.post-45828686546324770592010-12-04T18:16:38.971-06:002010-12-04T18:16:38.971-06:00just want you to know...I'm here listening..an...just want you to know...I'm here listening..and praying..Nikki (Sarah)https://www.blogger.com/profile/13731200601840020130noreply@blogger.com