Did I do the right thing?

Hi, I'm Lily and I'm a second guesser. *altogether now* Hi, Lily.

I have been meaning to talk to my boss for the last couple of weeks about my absences. I missed Wednesday two weeks ago and Thursday and Friday of last week. I am going to have to take two half-days next week for the initial consultation with the psychiatrist and follow-up with my OBGYN. I wanted to bring that to her attention before someone else did, so I asked if I could meet with her for a few minutes.

So without going into details I told her that I had some things going on that were causing me to use some unplanned sick days, and that I was going to have to miss some more half-days soon to get everything wrapped up. She wasn't as supportive as one might hope (but then again that really isn't her style and I don't know why I really expected it) but she did acknowledge that she understood that you have to be healthy physically in order to do your best, to which I completely agree. But at the same time, she couldn't stress enough that when I'm gone no one else can do my work for me (duh, I know that). She also warned me that I am close to being docked pay. What? I still have 5 1/2 sick days left. That's not close. How's that for a subtle guilt trip. I already don't take off time when I need to, and now that I was going to try I feel like I have a target on my back and I have to do my job even better. I stayed late today because I now feel like she's watching me. UGH. Part of me thinks I did the right thing by going to her before she could come to me, because that really would have freaked me out and made me think I was going to be fired or something... but then part of me thinks I should have left it alone, that I've now targeted myself. Did I mention UGH? Did I do the right thing?

P.S. I find it crazy that it is pouring rain, yet 29 degrees. Tomorrow morning will be fun.

2 comments:

Harriet said...
January 27, 2009 at 8:27 PM
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Laura L said...
January 28, 2009 at 7:39 AM

Of course you did: you're being proactive AND you're taking care of yourself.