A Fork in the Road

I can't make a move without approaching a fork in the road. Every decision is the opportunity to move forward or take a U-turn in the wrong direction... and right now I feel extremely self destructive. I am so tired from feeling so many emotions that I have never learned to filter; basically emotional overdoses. And the way my mind/body has chosen to deal with it quickly is panic attacks. When the "consequence" in dealing with what ails you is in turn causing you more pain and fear, it eats away at your confidence. When I began this journey about 3 months ago, I knew I was ready and I was prepared for everything that I thought would be thrown my way. I knew I could do it. Now I don't feel it at all. I wonder why I thought I could ever do this.