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I am hiding.

Not me personally, but my inner self. Something has caused her to retreat into darkness. Is it fear? Is it anger? Is it confusion? I have been trying to find myself for the past month and cannot figure out where I have gone. I feel empty; just a shell of my former self.

I sit and listen. I hear nothing. No inner voice telling me I am strong, I can continue fighting and trudging through the pain. Silence.

12 comments:

Being Me said...
November 2, 2009 at 12:21 AM

Perhaps she has retreated for a while, to find solitude. Soon. when your inner self returns she will be stronger for you. Look forward don't be afraid, anticipate it.
Jesus himself had to retreat from time to time from the noise of life.
God Bless you, be strong.
BM

Just Be Real said...
November 2, 2009 at 4:57 AM
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sarah said...
November 2, 2009 at 6:57 PM

tons of hugs. The answers will come. After the quiet. After the silence. You'll hear it. In your heart. When you least expect to hear it. It will be there. His power working in you won't let you down. Sarah

Susan said...
November 2, 2009 at 6:58 PM

When the time is right she will reappear. Be patient and gentle with yourself. Waiting is the hard part. Remember you are strong.

Harriet said...
November 3, 2009 at 7:17 PM

She'll come back. Be patient. Hugs.

Marj aka Thriver said...
November 5, 2009 at 1:12 PM

Oh, I so know that feeling. Maybe you feel stuck and there's the silence because something really big is about to break through and it's, understandably, frightening. Sending strength and courage vibes. You can do this! ((((((safe, comforting, encouraging hugs))))))

imaginenamaste said...
November 5, 2009 at 9:51 PM
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mile191 said...
November 6, 2009 at 3:17 PM

I am so sorry. I wish I could be there, and help you hear something amazing and wonderful and full of hope. I know that darkness. I am lonely in a crowd....and it is so hard to fight.

Hugs, and hope in your healing.

mile

Sophia said...
November 6, 2009 at 8:09 PM

I have been where you are often. I am a survivor of child abuse, rape, and domestic violence. There is hope. Hang in there. Unfortuanetely, with what you and I have gone through...there will be mountain tops and then there will be vallys. Soon...there will be more mountain tops than anything.

I'm here if you want to talk.

Hugs!

mmaaggnnaa said...
November 7, 2009 at 1:57 PM
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HeartfeltHeartLook said...
November 8, 2009 at 3:51 PM
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