Lost in the Dark

I am so lost. Lost within the darkness of my mind.

Why am I feeling like this again? Why am I not getting better?

Every second that passes takes another ounce of hope. I don't know how much longer I can keep trying to find the light, just to be thrown even further into the dark.

I'm praying. Gosh, I am praying so much but I feel so alone. Why is He leaving me in this place of such pain?

I don't want to keep living like this. It is just too hard.


Just Be Real said...
July 10, 2010 at 6:21 AM

Dear one, I am here with you rocking you. ((((Lily))))

Karen said...
July 10, 2010 at 9:16 AM

Lily...I don't know you, or your life's story, but your words just break my heart...

These lyrics of a song by Selah are playing in my head now...

When the valley is deep
When the mountain is steep
When the body is weary
When we stumble and fall

When the choices are hard
When we're battered and scarred
When we've spent our resources
When we've given our all

In Jesus' name, we press on
In Jesus' name, we press on
Dear Lord, with the prize
Clear before our eyes
We find the strength to press on.

I'll be praying for that strength to fill you up...and for God's presence to surround you...

Don't give up....

Grace said...
July 10, 2010 at 12:54 PM

Oh sweetie...you are NOT alone. I'm so sorry for your pain. I am here - right here- and I am not going anywhere. *holding my hand out to you*. I know you are so very tired. I am sending you a warm blanket and a soft pillow to rest your head.
~ Grace

I'm sending you the song above...it sometimes helps me feel less alone - maybe it can bring you a moment,of comfort, however brief.

Kathy M. said...
July 10, 2010 at 1:33 PM

I'll keep you in my prayers. Hugs to you.

Harriet said...
July 10, 2010 at 4:14 PM

Maybe you are getting better. It's so hard to tell, tiny baby steps every week, and sometimes they go backwards. You are not alone.

Anonymous said...
July 10, 2010 at 8:04 PM

Oh Lily, I wish I had some valuable words for you. Thinking about you :)
Something that you might like--the art therapist in my program told us a few weeks ago that even birds have to fall before they can fly.

Deb said...
July 10, 2010 at 9:41 PM

Sweet girl, that's the enemy talking. And he's a big, fat liar.

Here's the truth:

"...my God turns my darkness into light" (
Psalm 18:28).

Jesus Christ conquered my darkness and your darkness when He died on the cross.

Nothing is too hard for our loving God.

He loves you so much. He promised that He would never leave us. Never abandon us.

He always. Always keeps His promises.

Praying for you in Jesus' name.

Sweet dreams.

sarah said...
July 11, 2010 at 10:55 AM

Here...listening....praying....Hold tight girl...just hold on. Sarah

Anonymous said...
July 21, 2010 at 10:43 AM

“Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.” - Matthew 11:28-30 (The Message)