Excerpt from an e-mail to V last night:
"I didn't realize how much of me could hurt at one time. And as stupid as it sounds being 27 years old, I just wish my mom was someone I could go to. I wish I could drive home, crawl into her bed right now and just cry. Cry and tell her how much I hurt and how I want her to make it all go away... to tell me it'll get better... that she loves me and is sorry I'm hurting.Yet, I'm here alone. Even when she was physically there when I needed to be told these things before, she was never really there. I was still alone. Nothing's changed.
Maybe this is what a broken heart feels like."
9 comments:
It hurts my heart to hear you feeling this. I hope things look up soon. Things will. Hang in there. Also my blog is private now- can you send me an email at guo791999@gmail.com so we can stay in contact?
xoxo- stay strong babe
-Lisa
(((Lily)))
So sorry you are hurting so much right now.
I am glad you have someone to e-mail for support.
Blessings,
Tammy
Yes. Lily, it is so very tough. Tears for a hurrting Little Lily inside, of hopes, dreams and wishes of a kid never fullfilled and the realisation it never will be there. All supressed for so long nows comes up. You will go through and it gets easier. This grieving process however is so very hard, necessaray and draining. Even more rewarding though. I keep you in my heart and thoughts during this diffilcut times of yours. I came through, others came through and you will to. Love to you
I am sorry that you have had a rough week. Stay strong and let it all happen at a pace that you are comfortable with.
{{{HUGS}}}
Pam
Oh my. I am so sorry. I could have written this too. I have such an empty spot in my heart for a mother. :( It truly sucks. I am sorry you feel it too.
Lily I am so very sorry for your pain!! (((((Lily)))))
I think no matter someone's age, sometimes we all need a mother to go to. I'm sorry you feel alone.
Take care,
Cassie x
Sweet Lily, If I knew how to comfort that little one inside I would surely tell you. How I can relate to your words here...tears for you sweetie. I would hug that little girl for you if I could, hold her and tell her that I love her and I'm sorry she is hurting. I'm so sorry she never had that.
((Little Lilly))
oh Lily...If you lived close to me...I'd tell you to come on over and hang with us. I know that feeling of wishing to go home and there's no home to go to. I've vowed I would never leave my kids feeling that way. Stay strong okay...here listening and always in your corner.
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