Unconscious Mind

My uncons.cious mind has been working overtime lately. With the business year starting to ramp up, my freedom to process whenever I want has been taken. I hardly ever sit down and really work through things with the exception of Tuesday nights when I am in session. As a result of this, my unconscious mind is taking on the extra weight and is producing nightmares that I have been having a hard time coping with.

I didn't bring them up in session yesterday as I was afraid of talking about them. But when I got home I knew I needed to bring them to her attention so I didn't hide from it, so I e-mailed her and let her know just how bad they had been and the details of everything. I felt a little better knowing that I hadn't just tried to push them aside, but now I'm scared about having to talk about them. I went back and read my recap of one dream in particular and could feel myself trying to shut down just reading it. Talking about it is going to be much worse.

4 comments:

Just Be Real said...
September 3, 2009 at 6:29 AM
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sarah said...
September 3, 2009 at 6:57 AM

I find it so much easier to write than to talk about "the stuff." When I talked, my words came out weird, faltering, not finishing sentences - It was hard to sit still and I felt like I would die but I knew I needed to say it, to own it. Why is it so difficult to say what we need? I think you have tons of courage. I'm praying for you. Sarah

Harriet said...
September 3, 2009 at 9:41 PM
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Patricia Singleton said...
September 4, 2009 at 12:12 AM

Yes, nightmares are so difficult to look at and find value in somtimes. Some of my major healing over the years have happened because of looking at what my dreams were trying to tell me. Talking to a therapists about them is so much better than holding them in where they can continue to hurt you and keep you afraid.