Gratitude

Last night's group worship was focused on gratitude. It was broken down into 4 parts and discussed in the context of scripture, as well as the personal experience of one of our co-leaders. Each part gave us the opportunity to think about how to express gratitude for things God has given us, how He has put individuals in our life to help us through our lives and recoveries, how He has allowed us to recognize our own growth, and how to express gratitude for our church.

This worship and support group is really good for me because it allows me to see how God is part of my recovery and journey to a better me. During those few hours every Thursday, it is so clear to me. I have a lot of things to be grateful for, and a lot of them I can see God's hand in. But I have to sit down and think hard. I do not take the time to acknowledge the gifts life has given me, but rather I focus most of the time on the little things I cannot change and forget the amazing things I have in my life. When I let go of those things I want to change, I feel out of control. Instead of focusing on the positive, I am holding onto the negative.

Today I had a very stressful day. I was running circles in my head of what I could have done differently, how I can handle what comes after, and everything I needed to do before heading out for the weekend. No gratitude in my mind. I finally left and stopped to check my mail, which I hadn't done in almost 2 weeks and my little box was FULL of stuff. After sifting through all of it I was left with my water bill, a shoe store coupon and an envelope from my doctor's office. Ugh. I really thought I was done paying all my medical bills! I ripped it open wondering how much I was going to owe this time, but to my shock it was a check! $50 back in my pocket! Sometimes gratitude comes in different forms, but I chuckled and thought to myself, "Nice one, God. The $10 off coupon I got for the shoe store would have been enough, but you really made your point with the check!" Suddenly, the weather seemed nicer, the day a little easier.

I'm grateful I had my eyes and my heart open to God today.

5 comments:

Madison said...
September 19, 2009 at 12:57 PM

It is SO easy to get sucked into the few things that go wrong and forget all the blessings in our lives. Your post is a great reminder to sift through all life's garbage and focus on gifts.

Susan said...
September 19, 2009 at 2:15 PM

Thanks for the reminder to be thankful for the little things that go right. I wonder why we dwell on the things gone badly.

sarah said...
September 20, 2009 at 7:33 PM

Way to go. I love that God blessed you like that. You needed it and He knew. He does really take care of us. Stay safe. Sarah

karim said...
September 29, 2009 at 6:50 AM

Very thoughtfull post on gratitude. It should be very much helpfull

Thanks,
Karim - Mind Power

Erin Merryn said...
October 18, 2009 at 10:52 PM

Beautiful thoughts! Love this post. I talk in depth about my faith in my next book.