The Hidden Door



Tonight that door became unhidden. The door to my greatest fears. The door that has NEVER been opened.

Finally taking this step to work through these fears and undo the lies that have been ingrained in me for such a long time could be exactly what I need to start moving towards the things I want in life the most. A husband. Kids. A family. But I won't be able to do that until I open this door and face what is inside.

I just hope it doesn't destroy me the way I feel it has the possibility to. It could send me back into denial, self-hatred and numbness. I hope I am strong enough to fight that. I hope I am ready.

10 comments:

Just Be Real/God Whispers In The Wind said...
March 10, 2010 at 5:36 AM

(((((Lily)))))
Here with you and
will be throughout.....

Finally Free said...
March 10, 2010 at 6:14 AM

Lily,
I believe in you sweetie. I believe you have the courage now. You have God's strength and all your bloggie friends to support you. :)

Blessings,
Tammy

Patty said...
March 10, 2010 at 10:17 AM

I do not know your entire story Lily. I had to be sober for two years before I was ready to walk through that door. It is a process that takes the rest of your life to go through but it gets better. Hold on to God and don't let go.

Catherine said...
March 10, 2010 at 10:28 AM

Dear Lily,

This is a scary process, I am working through mine right now but it is so worth it. Suddenly, as you go through the hardest parts you will wake up and feel like living, the world will be brighter, you will have hope. I believe you can do this.

Love, Catherine

sarah said...
March 10, 2010 at 3:01 PM

holding you in prayer....and always in your corner...believing in you.. Stay strong....Sarah

imaginenamaste said...
March 10, 2010 at 3:08 PM

Kick that door in and find all of yourself and embrace all of yourself.
Thinking about you!

imaginenamaste said...
March 10, 2010 at 3:08 PM

Kick that door in and find all of yourself and embrace all of yourself.
Thinking about you!

imaginenamaste said...
March 10, 2010 at 3:08 PM

Kick that door in and find all of yourself and embrace all of yourself.
Thinking about you!

imaginenamaste said...
March 10, 2010 at 3:08 PM

Kick that door in and find all of yourself and embrace all of yourself.
Thinking about you!

imaginenamaste said...
March 10, 2010 at 3:08 PM

Kick that door in and find all of yourself and embrace all of yourself.
Thinking about you!